And we’re off….at a slow canter for now

Where to start? The beginning is so long ago but the present is just so now….the middle… I like it. The middle is usually warm and gooey like a cake or a Reece’s peanut cup filled with peanutty goodness. The middle always has the best parts anyway, the action the adventure. Of course my life is not nearly that exciting but heck it’s my blog so if I want excitement I will add a dash or two.

First off my name is Monica or you can call me Lola (that’s my Starbucks name..actually don’t call me Lola..that would be weird) So ok I have introduced myself and now It’s your turn…ok maybe not, unless you are shouting your name at my page..if so I will wait for you to call a professional…really I’ll wait.

So I am me and you are you. Nice to meet you!

I am married, quite happily (how boring huh?) I have two amazing kids. My son is 13 and my daughter just turned 3. Do not fret I have a bunch of stories about them…but that is for a later blog. My husband rocks my socks and we live with joy and laughter. And I am the furtherest thing from a saint you have even met.

Oh and I have cancer.

Yep. Pancreatic, stage 4 metastatic to the liver..inoperable. Rough translation, terminally ill. They tell me my time is limited. Whatever that means.

Eeck! Sounds horrible, don’t worry, I don’t buy it. There maybe an expiration date on my ass but I have not found it yet, and my rear is ample..lots of surface area, and trust me I have been checking for that date. Nothing yet. I will keep you posted.

I was diagnosed over a year ago at 37…oh no…now you know how old I am. That’s ok, my age makes me special. Apparently people my age don’t get pancreatic cancer. My first doctor told me I was 30 years too young for this disease. Somehow that was not much of a comfort. Go figure. I have beaten some odds, getting this cancer so young was not my favorite one…but on the plus side, I am still here a year later. 75% of patients diagnosed will not survive the first year. So I bucked that trend. I am stable no movement the tumors are laying low. Trust me they better! I still work full time, except for my chemo days which occur about once a week. Another fete! Anyway, all these little stats make me what I am. A unicorn with cancer.

My friend called me that when I was telling her about all the crazies surrounding my “condition”. A unicorn with cancer. A rare breed that if you blink you will miss it. I don’t want to be missed though. So keep watching.

Life is too short. Too amazing…I love it. Every second, every minute, every silly moment..even the sad ones. But life, yep, it’s good. Honest.

I suppose that is all I have to say for now. Actually it’s not, but typing on the iPad while laying like a beached whale on my couch is not conducive for those creative witty juices.

But I’ll be back. Soon. I can tell you are excited about that. Really.

6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. walkingonadream89
    Nov 13, 2012 @ 23:43:32

    I really think I’m going to like this blog. I’m always amazed by people who go through hardships and look at life with a positive outlook. Truly inspiring and I wish you the best of lucking on BEATING cancer!


  2. monica923
    Nov 15, 2012 @ 00:47:31

    Thank you! I really appreciate it! The best thing about blogging is meeting new people!,,,


  3. Chichina
    Jul 06, 2013 @ 18:33:46

    Thanks for stopping by my blog today and leaving a comment. I, of course wanted to visit your blog site and was pulled in immediately. You have a gift for writing and gift for gut wrenching honesty. I’m about to put on my pj’s and settle in for an evening of reading your postings.


    • monica923
      Jul 06, 2013 @ 18:36:00

      Oh wow! I consider that quite a compliment from you. I read quite a few of your postings earlier and was so impressed with your writing. You truly have a gift for words and for the images those words invoke.


      • Chichina
        Jul 06, 2013 @ 19:52:26

        Oh…. *blush* thanks. You are amazing. Not only are you an excellent writer, I love the way you lay it all out there, I’m rooting for you!!!!!

      • monica923
        Jul 06, 2013 @ 19:55:32

        Thank you! Really! I am so happy to have you rooting for me. A person can never have too much support either in bras or people! Thank you!

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